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Title: fortune cookie
Category: full of life
Blog Entry: "fortune cookie" x Fuel

it fell out onto my desk
the crispy white paper floating down
like a prayer falling from Heaven
to bless me.
i had folded it in nervousness
while i sat across from you
i had folded it to keep myself
from touching you as badly as i wanted to
but i folded to hide myself that night.
and now it reaches out to me
the red and black are all i can see
the passion and alarm
the loneliness and infinite unkown
coming back to me.

in a state of confusion
a woman hardened and bent
but containing something beautiful inside.
torn between two states
a butterfly unable to escape the cucoon
wanting so much to be free
but needing to be sheltered and to hide.
a choice to make
to keep it or to break
a decision much easier to make
if i wasn't so hungry.
i felt starved to know whether i should take the chance
or leave it to chance that i am more than my dessert
or right to chance this opening
and then i realized
imagine what it must feel like
to be at the mercy of someone wanting
to break you.

but it smiled at me, twice
once, to tell me it had good news
and again, to reassure me that it was true.
i not only devoured the cookie
the hard, external shell crumbled to pieces
but i hungrily basked in the fortune
that continued to smile upon me
and i knew
that i am in my own hands.

"You are heading in the right direction."